My right brain, yearning to be free

Like most people, I conceive of myself as a unitary individual with a singular identity. That’s how the government—and my family—looks at me (one social security number, one wife, one mom).

But there may be more to me than meets the I.

Researching my novel-in-progress led me to the book “The Future of the Mind” by physicist Michio Kaku. In it, he explores, among other things, the plight of “split-brain” patients. Bear with me as I try to give a brief overview of what that means.

The most fundamental of questions. and good listening as you read—it will make your right brain happy.

You’re no doubt familiar with the idea of left-brain vs. right-brain. It has been part of pop culture for decades. As Kaku explains, “Dr. Roger W. Sperry of the California Institute of Technology won the Nobel Prize in 1981 for showing that the two hemispheres of the brain are not exact carbon copies of each other but actually perform different duties. This result created a sensation in neurology (and also spawned a cottage industry of dubious self-help books that claim to apply the left-brain, right-brain dichotomy to your life.)”*

Kaku goes on to describe studies of patients in whom the corpus callosum, which connects the two hemispheres of the brain, was surgically severed. (These were epileptics who had suffered life-threatening seizures caused by dangerous feedback loops between the two sides of the brain, so the severing served a purpose and had a benefit).

Interestingly, the studies showed that the two sides of the brain seemed capable of operating independently. When the two hemispheres are connected, the left brain (more analytical, the seat of verbal skills, often the final decision maker) dominates. But it turns out that the right brain, when liberated from the strictures of the left, may in fact have a mind of its own. “Dr. Sperry, after detailed studies of split-brain patients, finally concluded there could be two distinct minds operating in a single brain.”**

So where does that leave “me?”

Listen to me!
Listen to me!

What fascinates me most about this idea is the psychological comfort it provides me. I have written before on this blog of my struggles with anxiety and my search to feel less alone in the world. The thought that what I think of as “I” is not singular but composed of other consciousnesses makes me feel less alone. And it relieves “me” of complete responsibility for “my” well being. It means that there’s more than one way of being/doing/thinking.

The sad and terrifying thing is that my other brain’s voice may be completely drowned out by the somewhat commanding and authoritarian left brain, which makes me feel great compassion for the right brain. It also confirms my (?) intuition that intuition and non-verbal skills need more nurturing, particularly in myself but perhaps more generally in a population that values verbal gymnastics, rationality, and logic. So, recently, “I”—that is, the left-brained, dominant I—have begun consciously acknowledging the mute, imprisoned right-brained I. It has been a fascinating practice.

Given all this, perhaps the “editorial we” would be a more accurate voice to write in than first person.

We hope you’ve enjoyed this brief dive into neurobiology. We realize that talk of multiple consciousnesses in a single brain might be viewed in some quarters as cause for concern. We sincerely hope you won’t be calling the men in the white coats for us.

Interesting side notes

I am watching the fourth season of American Horror Story – Freak Show, which features the so-called Siamese Sisters: two heads who share a body (or a body with two heads, if you prefer).

A recent episode of the Hidden Brain podcast on keeping resolutions highlighted research showing that people did better at sticking with their commitments if they referred to themselves in the second or third person, rather than conducting their inner-voice discussions in first person. Related to the split-brain idea? You decide. Or you.

*Kaku, Michio, The Future of the Mind, 2015, p. 37
 **Ibid., p. 38

And while you’re reading…

More new flash fiction shortlisted at Mash Stories: “So She Says.” Thanks for reading, and I’d love more kudos!

32 thoughts on “My right brain, yearning to be free

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  1. My two halves often are at war with each other name calling included! Maybe we should name them? I should definitely put my left brain in time out! Ha!
    Thanks for brining this to the party! It’s never too late since they are always ragers!


  2. The late Oliver Sacks was a neurologist who had a wide and deep medical experience with the unexpected behavors of the brain, and thought deeply about them, with an open mind and great originality. He describes them with great literary skill. His books are not quick reads, but they abundantly repay the effort, because of the wealth of evidence he brings to bear, and his willingness to say when no well-founded answer has emerged for a particular question. My wife and I are currently reading his ‘Musicophilia’ aloud in the evenings, and it has stunning examples of the points you are making in this post.


    1. I love Oliver Sacks. I have some of his later books in my “to read” list. I remember reading “The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat” when it came out. The world lost a great minds(s) when he died.


  3. A bunch of comedians above! Is funny right-brained or left?

    Just read Hour Between Dog and Wolf by Jonathan Coates, and next on my list is Subliminal. Soon to be an expert on all things brains. Since free will is an illusion all this reading about brains must be pre-ordained.

    May your linear left march straight in a circle, and form a nest for your intuitive right, and may the two absorb shocks and worries, and help make your journey smooth.


    1. Thank you! Just found a great article on a web site called “Money Women and Brains”–gotta love it– indicating that the right frontal lobe is where humor is processed.

      I assume I can call upon you as my resident brain expert once you have finished your reading.

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      1. I am way into it. The Body has a Mind of It’s Own. My Stroke of Insight. Incognito. Thinking Fast and Slow. It goes on. Not an expert. I have to keep reading and keeping notes because my right brain sabotages the science. :/

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      1. I know, but the formal reality of the imperial pronoun didn’t really fit the post. My cat, however, also prefers it – and looks confused if corrected. Words constantly heard or used do affect personality…so we try to keep a a lid on her.


  4. Fascinating, yes.

    I’ve been interested lately in a different mental dichotomy – that of conscious vs unconscious (subconscious) minds. Apparently there’s evidence that the decision-making, “executive” function of the brain is actually part of the unconscious mind. (Ever do something and not know why you did it? Bingo!) And the conscious mind has to persuade the unconscious executive to do things – which “you” do by consciously visualizing possible courses of action and their consequences. I’m trying to remember what I’ve read about split brains. I don’t think it was supposed to be like having two conscious minds inside your head. More like having two unconscious minds? …hoo-ee! So which side is the conscious mind on? The left? Or do split brains contradict the idea of an unconscious executive function? (Sorry, biologist here.)


    1. My brains are spinning!

      I think I’ve heard something from the anti-free-will camp that we are pretty much 100% controlled by our biology and that even those decisions that feel freely made are actually a product of complex genetic and neurological interactions. This also raises the question of who “you” are. Well, I’m all for raising questions, even if they don’t have answers.


      1. Not 100%, surely, but being a biologist does tend to make me very forgiving of people’s “errors” and “weaknesses.” We aren’t nearly as rational, or as in control, as many people like to think..


      2. This is a point made frequently by Sam Harris. Brain mapping experiments show that our brains make decisions before we’re conscious of them. He makes the case that this obviates free will, but it could be that our “other self” is exerting free will but we just don’t know it. I emailed Harris about this… but neither of his selves replied to me.

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  5. I read a novel written in 1st-person plural once. Maybe that author was tapping into her other brain’s voice. Of course, as a reader, it left me looking for something to hold onto. I was a bit dizzy.

    Fascinating stuff. My left brain loves to dominate. Guess I’ll have to tell it to quiet down every now and then. That should go over well.


    1. I have to admit, I worried as I wrote this that people would think I’m nuts. On the other hand, regular reader of the blog should know that already, and if new ones aren’t scared off, that’s exactly the kind of followers I want!

      My left brain thinks agrees that first-person plural as a literary POV is a terrible idea.

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