I never considered myself to be someone who has a problem being vulnerable. After all, I put myself out there every day—as an editor, a speaker, a teacher, a birth doula, a parent.

But my self-conception may be, like most people’s, somewhat inaccurate.

This becomes evident as I count down to the release of my next novel, What Remains Unsaid, on May 15.

Woman behind mask

Hiding behind an inaccurate concept of myself

Suddenly, as I review the finally proof, I fear the writing is terrible. I can’t believe I’ve had the hubris to create such a dreadful book. I can’t believe I am asking people to read it, never mind buy it and review it.

Doesn’t that make you want to rush out and pre-order a copy?

No, this isn’t some diabolical reverse-psychology marketing plan. It’s me revealing the vulnerability I didn’t think I felt. It’s me letting you know that apparent success—completing and publishing a novel—doesn’t banish the insecurities most of us harbor about our self-worth and our value to the world. It’s me exposing the creative process for what it is: a scary tightrope walk.

I’m sharing these 11th-hour doubts to let you know that you can experience them without letting them stop you. When the first feeling of oh no arose, I could have called my publisher and told her to hold the presses. I could have decided to abandon my current writing projects. But I chose to go on, to put myself and my necessarily imperfect work out into the world.

And you can, too.

Here are some ideas for conquering writing insecurity. If you’re not a writer, they work equally well for any endeavor that involves interacting with the other people.

This also relates to a few topics I’ve covered before on this blog:

And now for the buried lead

What Remains Unsaid will be released for Kindle on May 15, 2017. It’s available to pre-order right now. There. I said it.

I’ll be taking lots of deep breaths between now and then. And focusing on my work in progress, which is, of course, absolutely perfect… until it isn’t.

The last giveaway

The final giveaway is underway for a signed copy of Dance of Souls before the May launch of What Remains Unsaid. Enter now through April 22.

How do you handle doubt?

I’d love to hear.

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6 thoughts on “Do you doubt? I do

  1. I’m always amazed how some days we’re convinced our book is wonderful and then the next we think it’s trash. Luckily, most of the time we’re somewhere in between: we think it’s a decent read and we hope others will think so too.

    Looking forward to reading your new one. Best of luck with the upcoming launch!

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  2. Perfect timing for a great post! I’m so glad I’m not alone, and you articulated the doubt factor beautifully. It’s like a phantom limb, something I feel but can’t put my finger on. Thanks for the post!

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